Yeah a lot has changed. Yeah i haven't been updating. but I know u don't care so i'm not going to write out every fucking thing thats happened to me in a year. Enuf to say that things have happened, I am fine and i am here.

Privacy eludes in the dusk of memory
Turning and turning until day turns night
When you heard me I mocked you and turned you away
So far you sank back so far out of sight

I cried for you once when no one could hear
And I begged for you once when no one could see
I missed you once when I did not know myself
And never again will you add to my memory.

i want a donut for breakfast. a big coffee and a donut!

that's what you use a livejournal for right?

people who use geographical livejournal communities to promote shows and SPAM SPAM SPAM need to DIE DIE DIE.

LOOK IT RHYMES!

You're Gone

I understood the words as they came
sent to me as honest as your name
I heard each syllable cry in dagger fame
but I continued to love you just the same.

Where can desire find its place
when it has been denied rightful space
I cannot run your eternal race
even after you stated your case.

Evening nights are lonely and dead
as I mull over the words you just said
How final and clear as they torn and shred
and I still cry remembering the sex instead.

If the Bible is to be taken literally on the topic of Creation, God made man from the dirt. If it is to be taken symbolically, how did God make Man? If Creation is not to be taken literally, why did the Holy Spirit, or the male writers whom the Holy Spirit was using, bother to frame Creation in a daily timeframe?

If you want to wonder why this is worth thinking about, this is where i'm coming from: Why should Creation be taken symbolically when there's no symbolism for God doing things on a daily calendar? What could that possibly mean OTHER than days? Obviously, Intelligent Design isn't possible if God created the Earth and everything in it in six DAYS. As a child, I was told they were God's days, which could be millions of years in Earth time. well, that's not very consistent of God to phrase it that way for us when, through the apostles, He cited the days of Jesus's death and ascension in Earth time.

My conclusion is that Creation can only be taken literally. Other than quotes from Jesus, where He obviously favored heavy use of metaphors, the Holy Spirit's work should be taken literally, too.

for PROOF:
Creation phrased in days: Genesis 1
Jesus's death and ascension phrased in days: Matthew 27 - 28; Mark 15 - 16; Luke 23-24; John 19-20

i'm not new to livejournal. this is a new account to shake from freaks but it looks like i got different freaks now who are obsessed with some other girl who they think looks like me. i took down my picture to stop the comments, even though i don't think she looks anything like me. she's nothing like me at all. internet people are stupid.

i feel really sorry for the chick these freaks are obsessed with. i started this journal yesterday and they were on it like BOOM. that's some dedicated psychosis there. stalker much? get a life idiot!

A christian can no more prove the existence of their god than I can prove the existence of my gods and goddesses, which is intriguing to me why everything science digs up to support biblical claims is automatically associated with the god mentioned in the bible. Can evidence be provided to disassociate each and every one of these findings from every pagan god and goddess? While Christians claim that their God is the opriginal god, this is not true when compared to the facts of the matter. The facts reveal that pagan gods and goddesses were worshipped far earier. So what say you to that? Where is the factual evidence to prove that bible stories really belong to the god mentionedin the bible? Christmas doesn't belong associated with Jesus' birthday because he wasn't born on December 25. To steal the thunder of pagan's winter solstace, it was claimed as Christmas. What is to stop these people from doing the same things to all the rest of the biblical writings?

My Nightly Cry

The understated torn heart in my chest
beats only for the safety of the solace I knew
once a long time ago we loved each other
and I did not fear the time apart
but that is gone.

Understanding reality stabs death within
to the core of my spirit shivering with cold
feelings and empty arms in the night hours
that's what I have now.

Come back to me and heal my broken dreams
I still love you I still need you
though you care not for me
and I never imagined this time would come
but it's where we are.

Death is a transition. It is a part of life. Life does not end. We fear death and it is unnecessary. I can slit my wrists with one of my daggers and my life will not end. It will just change. It will change like so many changes that have already happened in my life. I will change. To what, I do not know yet. It is a mystery that is not revealed until we enter that transition. It can be different for every person. Who am I to say?

Tomorrow I shall do nothing as today I work. I work as we all work. My work without pay as currency. My pay is much different for the work that I do. I grow and experience. Many cannot say the same, as they are lemmings in suits walking towards the edge of their own existences. They are dead. I am not.